Wednesday, February 25, 2009 ♪3:11 AM
Xiaohei, Weirong and Orjiao went to Bangkok today. Bon voyage. (: Anyway yesterday was Marcus's 49th day. Went to 光明山 to pray him. Woke up at 11:30am when I set my alarm at 10:30am. -.- Bathe and waited for aunt to fetch is over. We left home at around 12.15pm and headed off to 光明山. Reached there at 1:15pm. We were early. As the prayers supposed to start at 2pm. So we go ahead with it first.
I carried a joss stick over to Marcus's urn to inform him that we are here to see him and ask him out to have his lunch. Also told him that the monks are going to do some prayers for him. Aftermath, we head over to the prayer room and waited for the monk to arrive. The monks did a 1 hour prayer for him. I could not hold back my tears in the middle of the chanting. Tears kept flowing down and heart have been aching all the way through. Half way through the prayers, I accompanied grandma to toilet and have a stick.
While on our way back, Uncle Danny called me asking me where is the prayers held. Then I told him the location. Saw him and dad while we were walking back. Dad and I never talk much though. He just asked me whether what course am I taking for the diploma. I just felt that my relationship with dad has drifted apart. And I am closer to mom now. Dad and I have not much topic to talk to. Just felt very lost. Sigh.
Although I have learnt alot of things and learnt to cherish everyone around me after the lost of my beloved brother. But I feels that my life is not that bright and colorful anymore. A very dark patch of cloud has been floating over my head since then. I have been thinking of him every single night before I sleep. He have left me a very nice and memorable memories, right from the first day that he were borned and till the day that I lost him. He will always be my one and only precious brother in my heart. Till the day I lie in the coffin. (:
Anyway after the prayers, we went to Ang Mo Kio central market to have our lunch. Am famished, so I ordered a $3 prawn mee soup. But ended up regretting it cos the taste is bad. Its not appealing at all. -.- But no choice have to finish it up. Headed to Courts after that. Went to see furnitures as I am buying for my room. Aftermath, headed to Tampines Ikea to view more. Noted down alot of stuffs. But not buying it today. Maybe will go with mom and uncle over the weekend. Cos uncle will help me buy the paint color that I want for my room. The color will be Cinderalla (sweet pink). (:
He called me just now. (: Received a sudden SMS from him last night too. Was shocked to receive but yet happy. Hehe. Alright, I am gonna end my post with a photo I took just now at Ang Mo Kio Courts. Going offline and to watch television before sleeping.
My new boyfriend, Steven Gerald! Haha. Just kidding! =D
Melissa Siah
19th Sept '87
Married to Jimmy Ho
missymellie.o7@hotmail.com
